Welp…I….accidentally lost “part 2″…<.<… You see, I just copied all of the text so that I could paste it here…but then I copied that pic from the end of part 1…so..now it’s gone..I think..sighh

I’ll rewrite it after I get some sleep, seeing as it was roughly half the size of part 1 and wasn’t even finished yet.

Crap. darn you awesome tsuzuku!

Man, it’s really hard to remember exactly so I’ll just type and see what spills out. I think this is actually how I wanna make all my blog posts, heh.

Warning: Some stuff might not make sense.

Hmmmm…so yeah, last week was a biggie in terms of my spiritual growth. I just thank God for allowing me this experience, and while it has been saddening in many ways, at the same time I feel as if alot of what I’ve been party to has been super-edifying. Phew,  I’ve experienced so many biblical concepts and principals in action. The majority of the past week for me was spent in the doldrums. I was basically feeling really convicted of my sinfullness, and becoming more depressed by my failure to be faithful and find comfort in Christ. To put it in words “Ohh, how crappy I am, ohhhhh how crappy am I for not fully understanding how Christ forgives me for how crappy I am =’[ “………yeah, I’m an idiot, I know. Aside from my own personal issues, my church has been going through alot recently, and much of this “stuff” came to a head last week. For respect to all parties involved, and because I really don’t feel like trying to make a very long story into a shorter but still loong story which comprises pretty much my week from Monday-Saturday, I’ll just skip the details.  I feel as if God in part used this entire situation as a sort of ‘airing out’ for the church ( No really, everytime I think of it I imagine some lady airing out a sheet) and while I don’t have the full picture, from my persepctive, it’s been a mostly positive event for the church. But yeah,  because of the happenings last week, I was able to learn alot about my brothers and sisters in the church, myself, and most importantly God.

The best day of the week for me was Sunday (heh) it started off a little rough, but in the end it turned out to be a cleansing, edifying day of fellowship. I woke up around 11 something and my parents were doing junk, so I ended up getting to church reallll late.  The guest pastor was just wrapping up a sermon (From the small bit I heard it was about trusting God.) Strangely enough, hardly any of the youth were at the church, which irritated me for some reason that I didn’t care enough to examine any further. After the congregation was released for a break before Sunday school (If you don’t know how it works, I really don’t feel like explaining, maybe later…), I met up with Aaron, Marty, and eventually Jeremy and we headed by car to Rockville to get some food from this Japanese place. After eating some ramen that wasn’t as satisifying without a Metro Adventure (once again, maybe later…) We meandered around Rockville for a bit more, ate some acid/soda bubble gum, then headed to Aaron’s house for a weekly meeting that we’d planned. We’d missed the past couple weeks of our Sunday meetings for blah reasons, but this week it was definitely GOING DOWN! cuz’ we were DETERMINED!…mostly it was CONVENIENT! but WHO CARES cuz it was AWESOME!….. … … Dunno what happened there, but let’s get on track . The first half of the meeting was pretty decent I guess, it was mostly just Aaron telling the story of his week in where’s waldo scene detail. We decided to go to Mcdonalds, where they ate and I didn’t cuz I’m irresponsible with my money, then Jeremy went home. Aaron, Marty, and I headed back to the house of Aaron and some more chat lead to some pretty deep talk. The details of our conversation escape me at the moment, but believe me it was some grade A fellowship. I really thank God for that, because it allowed me to release some of my burdens, and get alot of spiritual edification from my brethren. Yeahh.. Sunday was cool, and so was Monday, which I just realized is yesterday now. I guess I can blog on Monday too since I’m here. Bayyy-sically I slept alot, read my bible alot and worked A-lot. I worked until 11 last night (Closing time at Ruby Tuesday) and made alot of money (To whomever it concerns, I made enough to pay you back…all of you.) I learned that my reading the bible at work draws alot of attention (I swear I’m not doing it on purpose) and opens alot of opportunity to witness and minister to my co-workers. It also showed my that I still need alot of growing to do in terms of my biblical knowledge and boldness. Pray for me in that regard.

Uh…I’m almost on E now….this blog post turned out to be way bigger than I thought… I’ll just split it into two partsss..and go to sleep.

haha, that’s awesome…

Oh yeah, Blog. I’m gonna use you to share music with people too. It’ll most likely be a bunch of Shiina Ringo stuff cuz she’s my favorite, but like…she earned it. Don’t like it? Link me something better.

*Edit* Had to change the vid link (Stupid Licensing)

Shiina’s so ugly. <3

Today was a very average day in my opinion. Now that I’m done with my 8 am class I woke up at about 10 am. Then I went back to sleep. Woke up at 11 am, went back to sleep. I finally woke up at about 12 something and threw off my covers, and went back to sleep again.

I don’t remember what time this vicious cycle actually ended but I eventally ended up using the computer for a bit, then mowing the lawn. Sorry, blog, I’m not very good with remembering details. I’m kinda happy cuz I was only supposed to mow the back yard, but then I remembered that I wanted to start serving my parents and helping out more so I mowed the front yard.

I did it diagonally too

More stuff happened, and I started feeling down while reading people’s Facebooks. You see, blog, recently I’ve been thinking about my lack of faith and how  much time I’ve wasted sleeping and internetting (You know, the usual ‘What am I doing with my life?” lamentation)  and it’s been pretty depressing, but also motivating. So I went to my room to pray about it and eventually fell asleep.

I had a dream about the salad at Ruby Tuesday and I woke up hungry and went downstairs. There wasn’t any salad. After I got back on the computer to practice talking to my friends on aim, and work on finishing this boring Korean movie that I’m not sure why I’m watching. I talked to a couple people, and got some advice from Lizelle on how to be organized (I’ve been working on that too.) After that (maybe about an hour ago) I started you and listened to the new Shiina Ringo single “Ariamaru Tomi” It was amazing and I love it.

Now…I’m just kinda…sitting, thinking about doing my devotion, but I’m still kinda stuck..cuz I don’t know which book to read…and I just realized I can type however I want on you. I was all worried about like…grammar and stuff, thinkin Jason would read this and be like “Pshh, I can spell.” But now I’m just like….whatever…

Maybe it’s bad to type so much on my first entry…Who’s actually gonna read all this

Well, I’ll just use you to send a message to the future me.

Dear Future me,

You need to start working on getting more organized if you seriously wanna do this retreat thing! Stop slouching, JERK! Clean your room!! Stop wondering if people are getting bored or something when you talk to them!! You need money! Either get a new job or start working more!! AND ALSO…

Oh…hey. Sorry, Blog. I forgot you were there. well…I’ll start actually posting more organized and thoughtful stuff on you in time..or not..But I mean, did you see Aaron and Lizelle’s blogs?? They’re all like…organized and useful. Who’s gonna grow by reading you? I’m sorry…that’s not your fault…Just give me some time, I’ll make you the greatest blog..nah..Like, you’ll be cool, don’t worry.

Hey, does putting spaces between my blurbs of text actually make this easier to read?